High School is stupid. 11th grade is hell. I hate It. I hate School. The only reason i go is so i can graduate and get outta here. My mom is so… ugh. Stupid bitch . My dad is just perfect in everyway. And ashley… well haha. Its a long story. ill gt to it later. But right now the bitch (mom) is coming proabaly to pick a fight. Bring It On.

"You know Spencer that i dont ev- uh." she hit the wall and balenced herself on the wall . " drunk bitch" i whispered but i guess she heard it. "maybe i wouldnt hate to drink if i didnt have a fuck up for a child.." god.. wheres dad shes gonna go off again and right now i dont wanna deal with the bullshit shes about to say. " you know…" she pauses and just looks at me sitting in my rolling chair inching closer to me ever time her feet move. she stops so that were so close i can smell her drunken breath. " you are the reason your brother is dead…" i jump up so fast she falls over. and for a drunk person she got up really fast. " fuck you ! i had nothing to do with that!! i was like 6 when he died how could i have had anything to do tih him dying .! how fucking dare you even say sometihng like that!! " she stares at me and slaps me across the face. "it was you! you killed you brother. Glen. i was speechless. what was i supposed to say…

I just looked at her while tears fel down my face . " yea , not all high and mighty now are you spencer. " "PAULA! " dad grabbed her around the waist and told her to stay quiet and think about what she was doing . " i know exactly what im doing arthur ! " i looked up towards them and said all that was running threw my head and that time " i..i didnt." "Yes you did Arthur if you dont tell her i will! " dad just looked at me and put his head down " okay fine then . You started the fire that killed him not a cigerette your the one who pushed the candle in the basket. And then went outside to play letting the house in ohio and your brother burn . YOU KILLED HIM!" i fell to the floor " no! IT was an accident i.. i couldnt have meant to. No " "yes you stupid little- " "paula thats enough leave now . while i talk to my daughter" and she left . dad came up to me and hugged me so tight i could babrley breath. ‘dad im sorry i didnt.. if i could i would. " " spencer no one means for things like that to happen. " was all he said and smiled and he left my room.

i couldnt have i didnt… i couldnt take it it was just to mcuh to handle . I mean i was little i dont even remember. why cant i remember. i just need to get out of this house.

so i do what i do every other time i need to get out of this hell hole. i jump out of my window and hop the fence and knock on the girls window . she opens it and looks at me and ask whats wrong. i lose it i jump into her arms and just bawl. she doesnt ask whats wrong but we fall asleep in the position we last were in . I woke up and ashley was playing with my hair . "hey spencey thank god for weekends huh. " she smiled and i melted " yes there the best. thank you for letting me crash here. " "anytime spencer, so are you gonna tell me what happened? " i just look at her and she nodds

We sit in silence and then i hear her stomach growl and realise that she hasnt moved " hungry? " "oh yes and i have to pee but i didnt wanna wake you sooo. " " oh! haha sorry " i jump up and she blots to the bathroom.

God that girl. My bestfriend. Nothing more sadly… Well for now anyway.