I’m sitting here trying to remember the first time I came to terms with my sexuality. I wonder, was it when I had my first crush on my student teacher in junior high? Maybe it was when my room was covered in posters of male models and boy bands. Only because I thought if I put up a single picture of a woman, my sisters would just KNOW immediately. Maybe it was when it was when I was 15, and sharing a bed with my best friend was more intimate than what it should have been. Hell maybe it was my first kiss with another woman.

These details seem insignificant right now. All I know is, I’m sitting here in awe of the woman I am completely and utterly infatuated with. Maybe this is because she’s the only woman I’ve ever really been in love with. Or maybe it’s because she is completely breath taking. Fuck it, maybe it’s because I’m horny as hell.

“Well?” I’m pulled out of my reverie by Ashley. That’d be Ashley Davies, object of my current horny thoughts. We’re in the campus library where the five of us have been assigned to our month long project. What were the chances of ending up at the same university as her after not seeing her in so long. Even more unbelievable – is that we ended up on the same course assigned to the same group.

Shit I have no idea what the hell she was talking about.

I take stock of all the faces around me to try and gather some semblance of what the question may be relating to. But nobody seems to be giving anything away. Maybe they’ve all already answered because she’s glaring directly at me.

Shit I’d better just bite the bullet.

“Well what?” I ask, giving her my brightest smile.

“Jesus, what planet are you currently occupying Carlin? Are you ready for a twenty minute coffee break or not?”

“Coffee..um break, yeh sure.”

After my affirmation everyone swiftly gathers their belongings to make a move. She’s the only one still here when I finally manage to pull myself up in search of some caffeine. She appears to eye me sceptically.

“If you’re not invested in this Spencer, the professor will probably be able to swap you for a less inept student.”