Previously in "Time to stop":

Okay this conversation was clearly going nowhere so I take a deep breath and said everything that was on my mind:

What Spencer had wanted to say:

– Look ash, I’m gonna say it once, because I can’t take it anymore, but you can’t interrupt me until I finished okay? She just nodded. Okay… where to begin? Ash…you know you’re my best friend here and I don’t want to ruin this friendship or anything but seriously I couldn’t keep it for myself anymore. I… the first time I saw you I felt so weak and vulnerable, I was staring at you from the beginning even if you weren’t talking to me! I don’t know I was like obsessed with you but I couldn’t figured out why, because I couldn’t bring the idea to myself, that maybe…maybe there was a chance that I could be gay. But talking to you, hang out with you, touch your hand accidentally or not…. The more I stayed with you the more I …fell for you. Because yes, ash, whatever you want to admit it or not, you’re an amazing girl, you’re so strong, so beautiful, hell you’re hot! She smiled at that statement and I just want you to know… that I think…. I think I’m in love with you, and I’m terrified for it.

There was an awkward silence, she just stopped staring at me and looked down the floor.

I can’t believe it!!! She just walked away from me after everything I told her. After this afternoon I really thought she would be the one who could understand me!

After a half hour of looking at the ceiling without a single sign of Ashley, not a call, not even a text-message, I was walking in the room back and forth.Then I saw the mini-bar… and he was open! Those bottles are really small…maybe I could try one, I mean it’s not like anybody do it, plus for ash it was a get away pass… okay so maybe just one bottle….

 ‘I think I’m in love with you…’ I couldn’t help but repeat the words inside my head, “in love”? and with me? I had to process this. It’s not that I don’t love her back, it’s just so new and I guess… I guess I’m terrified too. You should have seen the hurt in her eyes, but I just… I couldn’t deal with it at this moment so I just went for a walk and I ended up in this bar I knew…

So I went out of the club and began to run, run like there was something chasing me… until I reach the door of our hotel room, and when I entered it, I couldn’t believe my eyes.

There were like eight bottles of vodka all over the floor…. And there were all empty!

She closed the distance between me and her again… pushing me against the wall, putting her hand at each of my sides so I couldn’t escape. I have to say that this side of Spence was really turning me on, but I couldn’t take advantage I know she was gonna feel sick anytime soon by now.