I got to my apartment around seven knowing too well Eric would be there. I sigh. Ive been driving around LA with no specific destination. And to make matters worse, I went round and round and I ended up in front of her Gallery more than five times. What the ***** is wrong with me? And I kissed her back? Something is seriously wrong with me.

I took my jacket off and dropped them on the couch. I smell a sweet aroma coming from my kitchen. Eric, I thought.

Eric: Hey babe! Whereve you been? I thought you had the day off?

Tina: I was just out and what are you making?

God I feel so guilty.

Eric: Just a little something for one special lady on a very special day.

I nearly chocked. What have I done? Here I have a sweet guy in my apartment making dinner for me while I was out having the most intensifying kiss. I started to walk towards the bedroom when Eric placed his arms around me. Oh no.

Eric: Arent you forgetting something sweetie?

Tina: Erm sorry?

Eric: Dont tell me you forgot!!!

He turned me around and gave me a bouquet of tulips. God! I totally forgot! It was our 6 months together and I totally forgot about it!

Tina: Im thank you Eric, theyre beautiful.

Eric: You forgot didnt you?

God I felt like kicking myself. And its already too late to lie!

Tina: Im sorry. I just havent been Ive just been preoccupied, thats all. Im really sorry.

Eric: Hey its ok. Dont worry about it ok? Why dont you go and have a nice hot bath and come back out here while I prepare dinner?

Eric is just so sweet. What was I supposed to say?

Tina: Thank you, Eric. Ill see you in a while ok?

Eric: Hey did you get the earring you left at the gallery?

I felt my heart stopped. Again, my mind played back to the kiss.

Tina: Umm Yeah. I did.

Eric: It was so sweet of Bette to call. Shes one ***** of a lady.

I doubt youd think that way if you knew she kissed me and I kissed her back, the voice in my head said.

I shivered. I nervously kissed him on his cheeks and went to take my much needed bath. What is wrong with me? She kissed me and I kissed her back? I just couldnt believe myself. Is that considered cheating? I mean kissing someone? Ive never cheated before; then again I never had any reasons to. But why start now? Bette, what you do to me! What if it was nothing? What if it was just me trying to feel what its like to kiss another woman? Her lips were soft on mine. I bit my lower lip, still feeling the lingering sensation.

I stayed for a good half hour in the bath nothing else on my mind but the beauty of the kiss and the image of a beautiful woman non other than Bette. What is this feeling? What does it mean? I have to find out. I have to see her again and find out what it means. It may not be anything; maybe just my curiosity. I looked at fingers, they were all pruned. I grabbed my robe and dried myself.

The dinner was lovely and we had a good laugh. Eric has always been able to make me laugh and made me feel special. Even though we work very demanding hours at our jobs, he always manages to make simple things like this a memorable occasion. I have no doubt that I love Eric. But the feeling I have inside me? I dont have a clue.

As it got late, I started to become weary. Not from the laughs and work, but from constantly trying to push Bette to the back of my mind. Every time Erics hand touches mine I imagined it was hers. Every time he kissed me I was reminded of how it was nothing compared to the wonderful kiss she and I shared at the gallery. I closed my eyes to block the thoughts.

Eric: Honey are you ok? Maybe we should call it a night eh?

I opened my eyes realising he was still there. This is weird, I wanted HER to go away from my thoughts and as soon as I opened my eyes I was wishing she would appear before me!

Tina: Umm… Im sorry Eric. I, Im just tired. I need to lie down.

Eric: Ok Ill clean this up and get ready for bed?

I didnt want Eric to stay the night. I couldnt lie to him and share the same bed with him at the same time. But I had no choice, I mean, after he cooked and prepared all this?

Tina: Ok sure. Thanks.

As he got to bed, he held me in his arms. I wonder what he did to deserve this; his girlfriend lying to him. Its just not me and I wish I hadnt but how could I when the temptation was the one and only Miss Porter? Im sorry Eric, Im sorry I lied.

Tomorrow, I will see her and know for sure what all this means