Morning is here again. I should be happy to be free but trapped in my mind is a hell that I can’t express. It’s like a tape that is on loop that can’t be shut off” thought  Alice .

She had been there for about a week. The physical things they had done to her longer caused her pain but she was so far inside herself it didn’t matter. She remembered the leader taking her to his shack and beginning to take the one thing that she had left, her body. She was crying, how her body was being doing this and again could. She hated what was happening to her. She did not want it yet. She was on the verge on cumming. God! How could this be? All of the sudden her back arched and her breathing stopped and she came again. Her humiliation was complete.  Alice  ceased to, be she was nothing.

“Everyday we would just wait our turn. It felt like they were vultures and thieves at my back everywhere I turned. I was so tired I prayed for death everyday, anything to end this hell. I could no longer take the madness so I tried to escape on nights. I crept out my hut and headed straight for the river I had seen two days ago. I got half way there when I was found and taken back to the camp. Fear too on a whole new meaning. They water boarded me every other day for two weeks.

 When I was at the hospital I had to see a shrink everyday for a hour. The first couple of days I said nothing so he gave me a journal to write in.

Today we came back home. Tasha is the one constant I have to hold on to right now.  Bette is standing there with hope in her eyes. When will I ever be good enough? My body aches, my soul is bruised and I have so much rage inside it is swallowing me whole. I am so tired but I can’t sleep standing on the edge of something way too deep. Its funny how I want to speak but can’t so I am screaming inside”

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Tina and Alex got up and had breakfast. While they were sitting at the table, Summer came out of her room grabbing her coat.

“Mommy, where is auntie Summer going?”

“She is going to lunch with friends. Today is my day off so we’re going to hang out all day” said Tina.

Alex had a big smile on her face as she finished her cereal.

Tina and Alex did some light cleaning while Alex was picking up her brat dolls and polly pockets. Tina was making lunch, snacks to put in the picnic basket. She was putting shorts over her bikini when Alex walked in the room. She saw her mother and shrieked.

“We’re going swimming and running around the room"

Tina laughed.

“Go put your suit on, We’re going to the beach"

Alex came back a few minutes later. Tina put suntan lotion her then drove to the beach. Alex was so excited she talked a mile a minute all the way there. They found a spot. Tina layed their stuff out and put floaters on Alex arms. Alex was covering Tina’s feet with sand, telling her about the boy name named Danny who ate paste and liked to borrow her crayons.

“I saw that you got an A on you spelling test. I am proud of you. I took the picture you made in art and put it on my desk at work" said Tina.

“Mommy can we get wet now?” asked Alex.

Tina took her hand and walked into the water, a bit holding her by the waist, wading in the water. They stayed in for a while.

Tina made Alex get out so they could eat lunch.  

“Alex, lay down. I am going to buire you up to your neck”

Tina did and the whole time Alex giggled. They chatted about the people that walked pass. They got in the water one more time. As the sun set they walked to her car. On the way home Alex fell asleep.