Previously:

Bette, I need you to know, I want to be honest with you, so you know, not to hurt you, but to make sure you are makng an informed choice," she sighed. "I wanted to have sex with Josh in Canada, it didn’t happen, and I was going to have sex tonight Bette, here in our home, in our bed…………….if I hadn’t heard your message.." she trailed off. Bette had tears rolling down her cheeks, the thought of Tina being with any other, let alone a man was more than she could bear, and it almost tore her heart out of her chest. ‘But she hadn’t gone through with it, either time, that has to mean something.’ Bette told herself, suddenly getting a grin on her face, and cupping her own hands on Tina’s cheeks. "T, baby, we are going to be okay, I promise,……..but I’m really worried about Alice, and we need to go look after her" Tina nodded, almost confused at Bette level of control. "I love you Bette…………." she whispered……………

"I love you too T, more than you can possibly understand" she pulled her into the tightest embrace. "Let’s go tend to Alice"

CHAPTER 3

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The drive to Alice’s apartment was a solemn one. Bette was still trying to grasp so much since she walked through the door less than 2 hours ago. She had Tina back, or so it seemed. The thing she went away for, to make herself a better person, to find herself, never amounted to much. She recalled the struggle to remain silent for all those days. Her thoughts would always go to Tina, and she had an overwhelming desire to scream out her name as if to shake her of her need to explore her man thoughts. Bette sighed a little louder than she thought.

"Bette?" Tina squeezed her hand tentatively………."you okay?"

"I’m fine, T,….I’m really okay, I’m just really worried about Alice right now" she gently rubbed her thumb over the top of Tina’s hand.

"I felt it Tina", Bette stated sadly

"What babe,?" Tina was searching her face for a clue of what she meant

"I felt Dana die, I mean I think I did, when I was on the bus heading home, just everything went so quiet as if time stood still, and I felt her, like she squeezed me or something" Bette eyes stung with unshed tears as she related her souldfoul experience. "I know that sounds……."