.six hours later.

Alice, holding Jules was talking to Dana, who was cradling Jamie. Shane, seated at Gretas right was playing with her cell while Lil Tina, was asleep on Shanes lap.

Helen was trying to read a magazine while Tina was in Bettes room, waiting.

Looking up at the others, Helen said,

Am going to get something to eat, anyone want anything?

They all shook her heads, leaving Helens trip lacking of purpose as she wasnt hungry at all.

She walked through the small hospital, the cafeteria, the small gifts shop, she even walked outside, trying to find some air to shake her body, to relax her muscles. Walking around the hospital, noticing the green grass she saw Tina, seated on a stoned bench.
Walking towards Tina, Lady Penelope noticed how defeat she looked but at the same time she also noticed how tensed Tina looked too.

May I? Helen asked, surprising Tina.

Eh? asked Tina, noticing Helen.

Nodding, Tina moved a little, leaving room for Helen to sit.

Quiet, not sure what to say or do, Helen looked at Tina, waiting. Noticing the icy look in her eyes, the white hands, her trembling fingers.

Its the same all over again Tina whispered, not looking at Helen.

What you mean? Asked Helen, her accent caressing her words.

Is Jack all over again Tina said, looking up, locking her eyes with Helens.

Shaking her head, feeling tears running to her eyes, Helen said,

Bette is not going to die Tina

How you know? Nobody knows! ….we have to wait they saywait!…we waited and waited and he never woke up! Tina mumbled, standing up, her body finally breaking apart.

Tina, Bette is not going to die, she is not Jack ok..!.this is not the same! Helen said, standing up, taking Tina by the arms.

You think? I dont see the difference, she is in a coma, you hear me? She issame as him Tina finished, turning, not wanting to look at Helen.

Tina, Jack had many injures, he was dead before he died, he was in a coma but there was no hope for him Helen whispered, caressing Tinas back.

How you know all that? Asked Tina, her body shaking, slowly turning to look at Lady Penelope.

I was there mumbled Helen, looking down.

What? asked Tina, her voice louder, taking a step away from Helen

I was there, Mike called me

You…youyou were there when he died? Tina barely said, her words merely a whispered, broken.

Nodding, Helen sat down, waiting for Tinas reaction.

You knew I was there? Tina finally asked, sitting at Helens side.

Yes Helen answered, looking at Tina, holding her look.

And you didnt say anything Tina whispered, unable to stop looking at Helen in the eyes.

What did you want me to say Tina? My best friend died and there you were, the love of my life, broken. I saw you talk with your father, I saw you cry and then I left. I couldnt say anything, there was no fair, there was no place for me in that picture.

Tina listened to Helen words carefully. Studied her face, how her lips were trembling, showing all the hidden emotions, all the pain.

You know, Id kiss you right now Tina said, turning her face, looking at the kids playing in the park in front of them.

I know nodded Helen.

Silence filled the air, shaking Helens body, calming Tinas soul.

But I wouldnt let you Helen added, taking Tinas hand.

Why? Asked Tina, looking back at Helen.

Because you dont love me

Looking at Helen Tina read her face, let the thick silence caress her heart, her wounded soul.

I dont? whispered Tina, holding Helens stare.

Lady Penelope shook her head, unable to stop a quiet fat tear rolling down her cheeck.

Then why I keep running towards you even when I try not to Tina said, shaking her head, breaking the stare, looking away.

Running towards me? Mumbled Helen, confused.

In my headat least whispered Tina, squeezing the tissue she was holding.

Helen closed her eyes, trying to stop all the emotions that were filling her heart, all the doubts, all the hopes, all the desire. Shaking her head she opened them again and sighing deeply she said,

You are scared; you are scared to love me, to love Tina to love Jules and Jamie

Why everybody keeps saying that? Interrupted Tina, standing up.

Because they know you Helen answered, looking up at Tina.

You know me? asked Tina, daring.

You are the same woman I met sixteen years ago Murph

No, I am not said Tina, shaking her head, moving away, putting space in between them I wasnt a ***** then she finished, cleaning the tears that were running down her cheecks.

Yes you were, you just didnt know whispered Helen, standing up, walking closer to her friend.

I wasntnot till I met Bette Tina mumbled, walking back to the hospital, adding I am who I am because I met her, because I love herbecause she loves me

Thats true too whispered Helen, following Tinas steps.

Quitely crying, Tina walked back inside. Helen words caressing her soul, waking her senses. Entering Bettes room she sighed, quietly praying.